Monday, October 7, 2013 —

Top and skirt - SM
Shoes - Zara
Shades - Rayban

I just watched the latest episode of Grey's Anatomy. I have a love-hate relationship with this series. I'm not sure if I love or loathe it because it always makes me cry. So depressing! Last week's episode is about cheating. SPOILER ALERT! I loved the Arizona and Callie scene. When Callie told Arizona that she wishes that Arizona didn't tell her that she cheated. That cheating is not a mistake... it's a choice. 

I have a lot of friends who are cheating on their girlfriends/ boyfriends now. I think it has a psychological effect on me or something. I do listen to their woes and try to scrutinize the situation but it's building up intense fear, frustration, disappointment, and anger inside me. All these negative emotions are shaking my values. I just can't seem to comprehend how people can hurt the people they love. How they can lie and pretend nothing's wrong. Selfishness? Temptation? I seriously can't understand anymore. Believe me when I say I always try to love people through God's heart and see situations through God's eyes, but I think I've reached my saturation point. My tolerance for bullshit is running low.

I know it's their lives. Like I can't tell them to do this or to that. But these situations pain me. And it's scarring me bigtime. I'm not being melodramatic but this is how I care for my friends. I get too attached to the point I feel like my heart is synced with theirs.

I guess it's time to master the art of detachment. And lift it all up to God.

1 comment:

  1. "I get too attached to the point I feel like my heart is synced with theirs." -sweet of you.


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