It's 2pm on a Tuesday and I've never felt this... lost. A kind of lostness that numbs you. I seriously can't figure out if I'm depressed or frustrated. Or perhaps just trying to grasp this new path I'm currently on.
I can't remember how I got here. I'm talking to my bestfriend and we're both feeling the same way. One day we were talking about how proud and happy we are because we got through the seemingly worst things in our lives. Apparently not. Because now we are in limbo. A state wherein everything's just so... grey and perplexing. I've never been a fan of grey areas. I'm always and forever all for black and white when it comes to dealing with situations.
I can't believe I'm here. Did I voluntarily walk all by myself or a situation somehow became my ride to this state. What exactly am I feeling? What caused this? Is it because of the befuddling transition I am currently experiencing? Or can I put the blame on this "whatever" I stupidly placed myself into for almost 8 months that fucked my beliefs about certain things? I don't know.
I don't know how I got here. I feel suffocated. Where's the way out?